~~ https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=youtube+for+tears+at+bedtime ~~


Teach Me to Walk in the Light - (Music Video) - Mormon Tabernacle


~~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kK7XnmUzUUA ~~


Oh, myLord God/Jesus Almighty






~~~ There is no way to ~~~

~ Explain the Miracles I Survived. ~

~ As My Heart and Soul ~ Lets me Know ~

~ that all the While  ~~  when in Need of Care ~

~ My Guardian Angel ~~~  was always there ~

~ To Guide and Protect Me ~~ Each Day ~

~ From the Dangers ~  of Harms Way ~

~ The Hallmark of my Faith that ~

~~ Determined  my  Fate ~~

~  © Don L. Johnson ~
















All of my Thought is Brought from my Heart


 From my Heart - to my Head - for my Words - to be Said


Yet, enthusiastically, my Heart Evolved way Ahead,


While Psychologically, my Mind - Stayed


way Behind - Emotionally You see, the kid in the 


video is the Light in my Life ---- that is still Hidden in Strife.


Even though - no one can know - where Odds Fits in - to where it Ends?


Well, neither do I --- and that is Why --- I am who I am? 


The Poetry of Poems that --- Houses My Soul














Education is what Remains after one has Forgotten

Everything he has Learned in School - For

only  one  who  Devotes  Himself

 to  a  cause  with  His

Whole Strength and Soul can be a

 True Master - So for this Reason Mastery

 Demands  all  of  a  Person


Albert Einstein


As Time is to Sales and Sales is to Numbers 

that translates into a Single Source that Matters --- T EX

Time/Matters  to  Numbers = without  Academics  for  Others ---

I Equated to Numbers where others couldn’t, because Time/Truly/Mattered 

 To date, I’ve Played by the Rules Inside the Heart of My Game,

   because the Rules Outside Weren’t Right of the Same.


Don Johnson







Humorously, hello my fellow and or folks alike, First and foremost, starting from the present then proceeding into the past time of mine.I’d like to introduce myself as a prelude to my Biographical Memoir to whom, why  and the way ...I yam what I yam today.



My name is Don L. Johnson and this is my story. The nearest I can remember that day when I was on my way to my birth place here on Earth, is birth-tually nothing at all, but what I do know is that it all began around 3 am at the Mercy Hospital in Cedar Rapids Iowa but it was too late to escape that hole rum-a-dumb-dumb-outcome, because, out come me ... Donald Lee ... as to adore ... July 11, 1944...  



Speaking of turds, I know what the strain of the pain of being over due on that #2 is like, but not a 7.5 Pounder? NO SIR! And yes, I do know the difference between the exit holes, but it’s close enough to make me realize that women are much more resilient than men-in that category of a sorer-horror-gory-story  it’s sort of like all gain with no pain with the ken of men and that's not fair, however, as for me, No Offence lady's, it's not that I don't care to share, but if a choice be given for a painless liven ... that kind of pain for me ... wouldn't be ... for my cup of tea. and with that in mind ... you will find that ... I'm no fool ...salute    and surrender to you and out of respect, you be the boss lady ... and I don't mean maybe!


Look, I know what you're probably thinking by now, but a little sense of humor doesn't hurt anyone, unless you're a fuddily-duddily-stick-in-the-mud-stuffed-shirt ...So, come on ...Get with it! ... Or your knowledge to be ... will only be ... with your imagination of me ... to figure out ... what I'm all about ... It's only going to be hard enough ... as it is


Imagination is good if it can be understood. All I can sayis that my Heart means to do right, while to some - my Mind may deem -    to be fluffy and light at Times ... It's just not my fault! It's Mercy Hospitals, because they wouldn't give me any mercy to the matter at hand ... So cut me a little slack OK? ...I promise you that if you do ... My quest will be to do my very best to keep your interest in mind ... as you will find from here on ... dog gone ...   ... OK!




I know the Lyrics aren’t quite the same as the Beautiful Original Lyrics to the following Song, but the Voice and Music is Beautiful that I can’t help to Feel it in my Bones to the point of writing my own Words to the music. I hope they won’t be upseting, because nothing can come close to replacing theirs. Besides, I am non-for profit promoting their song - In a Heartfelt way - I Love this Song 


- A-ha -

 "Stay on these Roads"

Original Lyrics


The cold has a voice
It talks to me
Stillborn, by choice
It airs no need to hold

Old man feels the cold...
Oh baby don't
'cause I've been told

Stay on these roads
We shall meet, I know
Stay on...my love
We shall meet, I know
I know

Where joy should reign
These skies restrain
'Shadow your love...'
The voice trails off again

Old man feels the cold 
Oh baby don't
'cause I've been told

Stay on these roads
We shall meet, I know
Stay on...my love
You feel so weak, be strong
Stay on, stay on
We shall meet, I know
I know
I know, my love, I know

Feel the cold
Winter's calling on my home


2 - Versions






My Lyrics


- This Road has a Voice -

- and it Talks to me -

Said Follow the Way -

- that I've planed out for you - to go -


- Oh Said - Feel your Heart - Said Feel your Soul -

- Oh so - they can know -  just why you should -


- Stay on My Road -

- To find your way -

- I know -


- Said, Stay on My Road -

- Where we shall meet -

- I Know - I know -


 - God - talks to me - This I do know -

- Said, don’t lose your Faith -

- for your Heart - won't Feel the same -

- then your Soul - can be no more -


- Oh, Feel your Heart - Oh, feel your Soul -

- So, they can know - just why they should -


- Stay on My Road -

- Where, we shall Meet - I Know -


JustStay On My Road -

-Where We will Meet - to belong -

- So, Stay On - Stay On - We will Meet - I Know -

- I K-----------------------------------------now -


I know - where I'm going Home -

- Feel your Heart

Jesus - is Calling - on my Soul - oh oh ah -


- Stay on My Road

Where, we shall meet - I know -


- Stay on My Road

Where, we shall meet - I know -


So, Stay on----------on-on - I know-----------uh----uh----uh-uh-ah-

Stay on - stay on - I know - I know---------oh-ohohohah-

Stay on----------------------------------------------on


my Lyrics

Don L. Johnson





The Alpha and Omega - Integrity of Me



Seriously, as with me, everyone has Their Own Stories to be Told about their Lives - Some Good and Some Bad - Some Happy and Some Sad - Just the way they've been Had - to Wonder - Forevermore - Why Me and or Why for?  



But, nevertheless, regardless, as the saying goes, "that's the way the Cookie Crumbles" or I would have thought that they would have Eaten it - Wouldn't you?  Even so, Their Stories are Compilations of Events that are Forever Etched into the Memeory of Their Own Personal Backgrounds of Biographical Memeoir's - Such as Mine to Define - as follows,




To start, with the Fortunate Exception of My Beautiful Wife and Partner Judy for 36 Years as opposed to the rest of this Saddened Disingenuous World of Hypocrisy - Just as My Heavenly Guardian Angel has Guided and Protected me from this World Outside of Mine throughout my Life - Judy was Unbeknownst Guided into my Life as My Living Guardian Angel who keeps me from Spinning Out of Control that Soothes my Soul.


So, right to this very dayI've Had Two Guardian Angels looking after me - Come on! What More would a Guy Ask For?  There is no one that could Take Judy's Place should anything were to Happen to Her and Unfortunately No One that I could Trust and Count on that Would Sincerely Be there for me if it were to Happen, but What I could count on is that I will be Home all Alone with a Broken Heart within an Abyss of Sickness for the Rest of My Life For this Reason - I Pray to God that He  takes me 1st rather than to face my Worst Fear of being Alone without Her - as well as being at the Mercy of Those Who Could Care Less about Me.




Look, I know that I'm not a Person that is very well Liked and Least of all Loved, because I am a Person who can't Hide His Feelings from View like "Quote Unquote" Normal People Can Do - So, all things considered and taking into account of the way My Life has Evolved with People Supposedly of Sincerity, especially towards me Today.  


Well, to me, the Heart is in the Details and the Details are in the Story and the Story Reveals the Truth "as it is" when your - F.C.S.I. "Feelings Can Sense it- just as Mine Can - with Family, Friend and or FoeIt's like me being a Square - Trying to Fit Into a Smaller Round Hole - with People I Should Know in this Incompatible World of Society - Gone Wrong - Like an Alienwhere I've never Belonged.



Again to me, if there isn't a Sincere Heart to be Found - then it's just as well as not to be Around anywayBasically, this is why I am a Lonely manbut even soI'd Rather be Alone then to Condone the Disrespect Towards Me and My Integrity for which My Character Stands for within the Feelings of My Heart



As a result, I could Care Less of Who You Are Near or Far and Ditto to Where You’re From or what You Say you have Done and I could care less whether you are of FamilyFriend or Foe or what you May Think You Know and Ignorantly Judge of Me Personallybut what I do care about is of the Present/Time out of this Space/Time of Mine of How and What "You" may Think of Me "Respectfully" towards my "Dignity" and that "YouUnderstand Who I Am not just for How I was Born into this Saddened Worldbut Despite all of My SinsHandicaps, Imperfection and My total Failure of Understanding People Including, but not Excluding Family Members, especially when Sincerely Needed for Support, but Even though I've always known that I didn't Belong to and or Fit Into this world with People, Still with God's Help and Guidance - I was Able to Successfully Overcome and Conquer it - to the Best of my Abilities Worth - ever Since My Birth.


Who you are is How you Think and How you Think is Who you are.

All I Know is that God Love's a Genuine Sincere Heart and so do I.



If  your Heart can’t  accept  a  person  for  whom they are,

They’ll Never Ever Measure up to Your Par,

for If your Heart is not Right  then

your Mind won't be either.

Don L. Johnson






I'm not bragging, Well maybe a little, but I'm just simply stating the Truth to the Fact that anything that I've ever Pursued with Interest - no one came even close to my Ability to Produce Productively - Way beyond what was Expected of me - Why? Because I put my full Heart and Soul into everything I've ever Pursued and Done with Interest - and still doI didn't do it just for the Money - in as much as the Dignity - For which I stand to be the Best At whatever I Chose to do - As is Continued through to this very Day.


The one Position that I enjoyed the most was being a D.S.R(Disturber Service Rep)Selling and Maintaining Hotel and Restaurant Accounts or any other place that Serves Food such as, Produce, Seafood, Cheeze, MeatFrozen foods, Can goods and Restaurant supplies and Equipment etc. - Anything Needed to Improve their business.


I sold for I.F.P. (Illinois Fruit and Produce) the Largest Food Distributor in the State of Illinois, The Largest Food Distributor in the Country (Sysco Foods) out of Houston, Texas, but the Longest Period of time was with (Dierks Food & Produce) the Largest out of my Hometown of Rockford, Il and Geograhic Metropolitan Area for 9 Years.


They had a Different sales Contest Going on every Single week that lasted maybe a week or so at a Time. This may sound a little Ludicrously Crazy, but Ludicrous as it was, but True - Because of my way of Thinking, I won every Single Contest From day one to the Last day done of my 9 years, Why, Because A Presentation without a Demonstration is wasted Conversation see My "Acronym P.H.O.N.E.- It's Impossible to Teach the Unteachable the Right Way of Thinking. Mainly because they don't have the Heart nor Character that I do - You can't Teach a Cat how to Bark or Vice a Versa - for I have found that it just is what is - as a Lost Cause!  I know, because I tried as a Supervisor with Frustration. 


I'm sorry but True - If you're taking all of this Wrong - It's because you don't Know or Understand me Any more than my peers didIt's because I have a P.M.A. (Positive Mental Attitude) with the Ability and Attitude to be the Best of the Best and have Proved it Over and Over - throughout my Life - I never knew any other way to be and Had Fun on the Run in doing it.



If you have any problems in Believing in what I say, Well I Wrote the Book in what it Took for Me To Be The Best from all the Rest - Click on my (The Seven Steps towards Achievement), The (Acronym P.H.O.N.E) and (The Farmer In The Sell).  




And the (Media and Achievementfor further Proof from further Magazine Articles, Awards of Excellence and Letters of Recommendation from Major Companies such as Oscar Meyer and Eckrich Food Service - Walla, Letters  


Eckrich Food Service Division -

9400-9420 Foster Ave. -

Chicago, IL60556



Dear Don;

While Reviewing the Muscle Up Contest Results that was run nationwide, it became readily noticeable that you are a strong supporter of Eckrich,


With the 430 Distributors we have on Board, and the Sum of 5000 Sales People that Entered our Promotion, I Am Quite Pleased to Report that you were able to Finish in the Top 3%. Dennis Brodsky our District Sales Manager, has talked about you and your Find sales ability, well it's certainly shows



Once again thank you for your fine support,

Good selling,

Eckrich Food Service

Jeff Huffman - Click here, Eckrich   

Central division sales manager JH/ks

cc: Dennis Brunke





Oscar Meyer & co. general offices - PO Box 7188· Madison, WI 53707

February 27, 1881

Mr. Don Johnson - Dierks Foods - 1616 Elmwood - Rockford, IL 61103

Dear Don:

I feel that because of the results of the past 2 Oscar Meyer – Dierk’s promotions that you deserve some special recognition in my personal thanks! You alone sold more Oscar Meyer products during the last promotion than all of the other Dierks salesman combined.


I realize that Oscar Meyer products are not necessarily the easiest to sell, and thus I have a great deal of respect for you and your ability to sell the quality of a product over and above the price. I also realize you are my staunchest supporter and most economical form of advertisement!


Don, I feel very fortunate to have a salesman such as you working with me. Thank you very much for your fine effort during the promotion, and keep up the great work!


Sincerely, Nancy M. Renda - Oscar Meyer sales manager -  Oscar Mayer 





And the one that I'm Really Proud of, is the Magazine Articles of being Awarded Salesman of the Month in the 1983 ID Magaze  Click here, Nifda  the Highest Honor one can get in the Food Industry where you get Recognized by each and Every Food Distributor in the United States. Once Being in it - It's like being Inducted into the Hall of Fame in that Industry - it's Hanging on my Wall Right Now as I Speak - Also you'll be able to Read the Full Magazine Article on my Website. WellI think you get the point that I am Alluding to.




Anyway, enough of that, because my back is getting Pretty Sore from my Stretched out Arms and HandsAlthough it did make me Feel Good Reminiscing the Challenges of Accomplishments of what I'm MissingI Really Loved it!



So in effect, Understanding is Believing and Believing is Receiving. Well, I have Earned and Deserve the Right of Respect to Be Me, Who, What and the Way I Am "Here and Now", but more importantly, I did it without Shame Attached to the Dignity of my Name


Did you know that at one Time they (The ones who thought they Knew Him Both Family, Friends, and Foe) thought that Albert Einstein was a Slow Learner and or Retarded - until they Learned that He was a Natural Born Genius?


There is one thing that I know for sure and that is that No one has a Perfectly Flawless Record, but, if you don't Believe in a Person's Character you're not going to Respect Him eitherThat saidFor any reason, Nobody looks down on me and gets away with it - without a Fight - and I don't care who you are!




So, to whom this may concern, If you're Feeling Uneasy with the Content of what I Write and or Think - Then you will Feel the Same by being Around Me Personally as a Person not Perceived as your Equivalence or Equal If you will. This is not a Scientific Question, but Why would you Want or Try to Equate Yourself with an Unviable Answer - that is not Directly Workable?



This is not a Matter of Physics in as much as it is to being Unassuming - If or when I Feel someone Looking down on me - They will not see me Again - Given that they are Spaced Out in Lacking the Mass and Energy to Equate to the Understanding of all that I Am - that Matters to Me - Basically, this is why I am a Lonely man - Inside of My Own Universe - Without a Denominator - to Equate to! - In other words, the Hypothesis of the Equivalence of - me=you2 - of which Doesn't Equate.


 I know the Equation within My Heart.

What About




Look, to whom this may concern, I could care less whether you are of blackWhite, Red or Blue or any other Color of you or Choose, but what I do care about is what is Good over Bad and Bad into Evil where the Devil Wins each time we Sin!  as I Reside on God's Side where I Write the Wrong’s where God Belongs.


Simply put, as one of God's "Loyal Aficionado Disciples" I/B the Devil’s Worst Enemy within the Ultimate Battle between God and the Devil - as 4/score Worth Fighting 4/for and 4/score End/2 Winning God's  War!





----------- Likewise, -----------

My Faith in Jesus Christ or God  is as 

Solid as a Rock as a Part of Me and Always Will Be. -

I don't push it - and as you can see - I don't Hide it either, but

 if I can make a Difference in Anyone's Heart by Being a Good Example 

by not Hiding it, then to this end, let this be the Eternal Legacy

of the Alpha and Omega --- Integrity of Me towards








 My Life Bestowed






Lastly and more Importantly

Noon of Us have been without Sin most

certainly me,  There is no Halo Hanging over my

head, but I know that I've already been Forgiven for the Sins

that I don't Forgive myself for By, the Man Upstairs Who really Cares

Designed,   Composed and Written by 

Me, Don LeeJohnson





There is an old adage of mine that describes the Feelings within  

my Heart and it goes like thisIn Life you will find that 

there is a Reason for Everyone you Meet Some

with Integrity and some with Duplicity






Some will Use you - to Abuse you,

Some will Teese you - to Deceive you,

Some will Contest you - to Test you,

Some will Beseech you - to Teach you,


Butmostimportantly -aretheones, 

Who Sincerely brings out the Best in youRespect

you and Accept you for who you are.


Those are the ones - Worth Keeping Around.

DesignedComposed and written by

Don L. Johnson




I am who I am - just as I've been Faithful and True in Lieu of God and or Jesus Christ and or Either or my Guardian Angel that had my back Looking after me through Thick and by Thin - even though - just after I've Sinned... All I know is that I have had Unexplained Miracle after Miracles throughout my Life to Convinceme that Something was Inexplicably Happening to me Way Beyond my Control, Yet, All the while Missing the Closeness of Human Bonding...


As a result, throughout my Life - In Lieu of my Passing Years - I Have Seen and Enacted on Constructive Things that others couldn't Comprehend to See that has Turned me into a much more Focused and Perfected Person of Character, but at the Expense of not Fitting in with no matter who or where I've been especially, within the Role of a Social Status Quo


Because I Am a Difficult Person to Figure out what I'm all about, Nobody has ever been able to get to Know the Real me Personally yet, Naturally & Including, but not Excluding the Result of being my Fault within Dubiously, Family and Friend, Simply because I've never known how to Instinctively Interact Intimately with People as to Fiting in - Again,


Simply Because

I am Oddly Different in

the way I Express myself to the

point of, not even The Wizard of Oz

can Magically Waive His Wond to Create the

Bond  Between  me  with  People as

forever  being  Stuck  in  the

World  of  Ozland  to



All things considered, when you think about itthere are Approximately 7 1/2 Billion People other than myself Living on our Planet Earth that could tell you much Worse Stories that would make mine look like I've Lived a Life of Glory Compared to being at the Mercy of a Dreadful or even a Hellish Environment such as the Holocaust etc.)When you think of it in that way My Story was one of Glory Irrelevant In comparison! That said, with Appreciation - I have been so Fortunate to have had the opportunity to have taken Control over my State of Affairs and or My Requirement of Environment to my Absolute Benefitto where it is Today to where I would have to Say is a Happy Endingthan that of the Beginning.For those who have known me with the Wrong Impression, a PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) doesn't always mean that you are Egotistical it means that you are Proud of your Accomplishments Despite all the Handicaps without Hiding it Particularly, as with me.




Keep in mind of  Albert Einstein’s” quotes while reading Every Part of my Biography ... as I only have a ninth grade education, but there is a reason, place and explanation for Everything that I write forward and backwards from the beginning to end... with better understanding ... as you read from my Biography ... Link Famous people and celebrities ...Who Don't Have a High School Diploma - as in their own Successful Reich...



Believe me, there is nobody harder on me than me” and if I were born double jointed ... I would have physically kicked my gluteus Maximus(buttocks) many times in my life, However there is no way that I would allow ANYONE Else to take part in it, as I have a thing about ... that makes me fight back.





I just want to say that ... not everyone can be in a position and or afforded an opportunity to pursue ‘Quote unquote’, a proper Education relative to a social status into a piety of a higher society … In others words the goal of getting richer quicker with the quality of what money can buy till you die ... Now that’s the jest of it, but the reality is utter ability … And I would be less than honest with myself ... if I didn’t point out ... of what my life was and still is all about as too where credit is due "as I know and feel that I am NOTHING without "God" in my life". Like the saying goes ... If you are dealt a lemon ... make lemon aid out of it ... Quench taste not waste ... The equation is with your imagination,



Knowledge and Imagination



Seriously,  this  key focal point parallels my way of thinking about  "Knowledge and Imagination". It's my main topic presented by Professor of  Science, Astronomy, Physics, Quantum Mechanics and  Logic of Professor of physics Dr. "Albert Einstein's" quotes that referred to Education and Knowledge  referring  as to High school and higher education from College and or Universities alike ... enlighten of the following,



Education is what remains after one has forgotten everything they’ve learned in school

 “Logic will get you from A to B …...... Imagination ......... will take you everywhere

The true sign of Intelligence is not of Knowledge .............. but Imagination”

 “The only thing that interferes with my learning ...... is my education”

The only source of ........................... Knowledge is Experience”



I have wrestled with the thought of understanding his reasoning behind his thinking in regards to this subject matter and come to the conclusion that you have to understand him in order to understand what he meant, because Education and Knowledge is very important, especially in today’s society So what I did is to put the content into its place of context ... and so here it is,



From nonsense to common-sense … of what wasto what is

Knowledge only Begins … when Imagination Wins…

In other words, if it were not so

We wouldn’t have evolved from a ... Homo Sapiens Mentality...

Into what we NOW View, Know, and Experience as living in a Modern-Day-Reality...

All Inventions ...... are of the Participations of Human's ...... Imaginations...

Including Science and Technology within its Study of Psychology”.






Contrary to what one Believes,

No matter how Smart and or Educated

a Person Thinks of Themselves ....... It is Wisdom

And Imagination that Supersedes ….... Their Proud Image

For without Them you have an Unstable Mind with a Broken Heart.


Composed, Written and Designed by,

Don L.. Johnson




It is quite ironic that Dr. Albert Einstein would have such quotes like that being that he was a professor at Princeton University himself, isn’t it? But, I understand what he meant and agree. I’m not saying that one shouldn't waste their time on higher Education to get through whatever Knowledge from College or to overcome adversity from a university that they'll never use to be abused by it ... No big deal, it's just the price that you pay for it ... After all, isn't that what student loans are for as to get you poor? All I can say is that it wasn’t meant for me and I still survived successfully without it and most of all, I didn't have to moan over a student loan ... you say you don't believe it then (Check onto the Media and Achievements sections of my site)


The Bearable Parable of Me: Two Puppies Fall Into a Large Vat of Milk - One Climbs Out as in Doubt ... while the “Other  Stays in - Determined to Swim ... Around and Around He Goes - Faster and Faster He Chose - until He Churned that Milk into Cream, Thus, Churning Himself into the Cream of the Crop, because He Didn't Stop... So you see - the Other of He - was the Moral Story of Me...


Look, I'm not trying to be insensitive or facetious about this subject matter, but it is true that it was my Imagination along with sheer will-power, fortitude, and determination that got me through to what I wanted to do. So, I planned my work ... then worked my plan ... around the things I knew of what my ability could do ... Just Like anyone else with the proper attitude can do .... Links → Acronym P.H.O.N.E. → The Farmer In The Sell → The Seven Steps towards Achievement ....


Here’s another piece of food for thought that can't be bought and that is that Jesus Christ” Himself had very little educational schooling let alone of what we call today of a "Quote unquote" Prestigious University of Higher Education such as, let’s say, Princeton University where Professor Dr. Albert Einstein's famous quotes still hang in what was once his office, Georgetown,  MIT, Penn State, Yale, Stanford, Cambridge, Berkeley, California Institute of Tech, Manchester, Oxford, and of course, Harvard Universities etc. I only used these universities as an example of what I meant by a proper Education relative to a social status into the piety of a higher society whereas only the spoiled rich can attend, because mommy and daddy paid for it to follow in their 1% footsteps or have the brain of a scholarship to get excepted of which would have been earned ... Link "Disappointing College Graduate Employment"  and  "Unrealistic Job Expectations Disappoint Graduates" 


I wouldn't be so hard  on the (1% Upper class) with their cash ... if only they would be aware to pay their fair share of it towards the burden of tax without the greed of cheating out of it like they gluttonously do ... only take advantage of the disadvantaged of the  (lower class 99%  per centers) struggling through student loans ... Simply put,  the playing field isn't fair, because of the Heir of Greed! ... I reside on the side of the  "equality of fairness" whereas  the Integrity of a (100% per cent) should be.


It was said that what little Education there were in "Jesus's" period of time between the ages of 5 through 13 years were taught at the Nazareth synagogue of grade school level, but mainly home taught. Their subjects were primarily on reading and writing, in areas of behavior and value, learn to avoid having dealings with violent people, to suppress all feelings of bitterness, and to avoid favoritism of which I would have failed miserably ... But even so, these courses should be the Integrity of the main courses taught in ALL of our classes as of today ... including all of the prestigious universities as in the before mentioned categories "quote unquote".


In Jesus's days, they didn't have what would be called ( "core courses" or "general education courses") deemed essential for an academic degree or elective courses that tend to be more specialized known as a major in medical, chemistry, biology and or physics etc. I think you get the gist of it ... Link Where Did Jesus Go to School?


Comparatively speaking in today's standards, it would be like 90% Illiteracy of the courses that is mandatorily taken in today's High School classes let alone our college and universities compared to 10% Literacy classes such as Reading and Writing of His period of time, but it too is quite ironic that  He, "Jesus" came to Teach us the most important/sincere Knowledge such as the Value of  living a life of righteousness within the Integrity of our Heart's to the knowledge of how He proved it right to the very Cross where He died for our Souls to choose Salvation, our only hope and weapon against the deception of sin - of which is destroying our planet and everything that we hold sacred to our Values and the Integrity of what we once stood for in the eye of the beholder! ... Yesthe real freedom at last ... is only found in the teaching of ... Christ's class ... that comes free ... with a ... (knowledge degree) ... For Heaven's sake ... this is the gate ... of an entry level ... that you don't need to proceed with a ... (high school, university or a college degree) ...  It's just not the way of  God's Résumé ... In the way we choose our fate to graduate ... Personally, this choice was mine to define and maybe yours to find ... I'm just saying that this is the way I learned to ... tik tok ... around MY absolute clock ... As our future is ONLY ours to choose ... to either win or lose... First and foremost - a higher education is what I call - the mind over matters - that flourishes my rathers...


 There is a couple of old proverbs that I like that says;

What doth it avail a fool to have riches, seeing he cannot buy wisdom?

He that maketh his house high ......... seeketh a downfall ... and

 He that refuseth to learn ...... shall fall into evils  ... and,

Wisdom shineth in the face of the wise ... and

The eyes of fools are in the ends of the earth  .........  and,

  Chinese proverb; Better to light a candle than to curse the darkness 





My Respected Favorite actor,


Mark Wahlberg's "Inspirational" Story of Success:


Also, the highest paid actor of our time. August 2017


Worth 450 million Dollars --- Holy moly


Life Learned to Life Earned!


With all things considered, it makes perfectly sense to me that Mind over Matter is better than the Matter over the Mind of Thinking In other words, You can receive a Successful Knowledge without attending to a High School or a Respected University or a College, because Failure, Success and Knowledge are entirely different Schools Brought too Thought


Point being, one can be Sought from the Start of the Matter while the other can be Taught from the Heart of the Matter In either case, if you put your Heart into whatever the matter, Knowledge is Inviting, Inspiring and Exciting as they are all Related and Equated to Success ... Simply put, it is the Heart that is the (GPA’s) Art of  Success ... that Truly Matters ... of a Matter of Fact.


One of  "Dr. Albert Einstein’s" quotations says, “Knowledge of what is does not open the door directly to what should be”  ... "Knowledge" ... is only as useful ... as of how wise ... it applies in our lives ... Link Their Disappointment Is Justified  and Link Famous people and celebrities ... Who Don't Have a High School Diploma  ... "A clever person can solve a problem, but a wise person avoids them"  Albert Einstein”


Look, as to consider, this is a perfect example of a complete turn-around from a Ninth Grade Middle School Dropout Failure and Dishonesty ... into complete Story of Success and Integrity  ... As a gang member growing up in a Dorchester neighborhood of Boston, Massachusetts.


(Mark Wahlberg) ... the youngest of nine children ... so as an underdog ... he felt like he had a lot to prove to himself. Wahlberg had been in trouble often with the Boston Police Department in his youth. By age 13, Mark had developed an addiction to Cocaine and other substances of which led to bad decisions throughout the rest of his teen years ... as a result ... He was sentenced to two years in state prison at Boston's Deer Island House of Correction. He served 45 days of his sentence and was released as a changed man on his own recognizance...


(Don Johnson) ... At the age 15 years old, I had my far share of trouble with the law too due to my poor behavior and judgment of the Integrity of what was right over wrong thinking at the time  of which led to my turn-around the most inspirational 352 days of my life in building the "Motivational Integrity Thinking" of my Characters Success in and from the (Durand boy's farm school) of 1959 to 1960 as will be explained more in detail further on in this My Biography to the Heart of the Matter, Successfully, no I didn't become a "decent wealthy movie star amuser of his place-time", but I did become a "Content Old Geezer Moved of my Space-Time ... Inspired by Albert Einstein.


Mark Wahlberg ... “finally I was there; locked up with the kind of guys I'd always wanted to be like. Now I'd earned my stripes and I was just like them, and I realized it wasn't what I wanted at all. I'd ended up in the worst place I could possibly imagine and I never wanted to go back. First of all, I had to learn to stay on the straight and narrow." Mark, first relied on the guidance of his parish priest to turn his back on crime. He told his street gang that he was leaving them and had "some serious fights" with them over it. The actor commented in 2009: "I've made a lot of mistakes in my life and I've done bad things, but I never blamed my up-bringing for that. I never behaved like a victim so that I would have a convenient reason for victimizing others. Everything I did wrong was my own fault. I was taught the difference between Right and Wrong at an early age. I take full responsibility.” 


First and foremost, Mark Wahlberg ... is not only a Good and Decent Family Man today, but He Plans His Work and Works His Plan Around His Family ... Link THE SECRET TO MARK WAHLBERG’S SUCCESS .


His actively involved in charityestablished the Mark Wahlberg Youth Foundationin May 2001 for the purpose of raising and distributing funds to youth service and enrichment programs. Wahlberg is also active with The Good Shepherd Center for Homeless Women and Children. In an interview, Mark said that it's important to let the homeless know that people care about them and are working to help the impoverished get back on their feet. Wahlberg served on the Honorary Board of Link Jerry Sandusky's Link The Second Mile children's charity before Sandusky's 2011 arrest on Link child sex abuse charges.


He is one of my favorite, highly respected persons with a Good Taste for WalhBurgers, His Attributes is with his family and 4 star movies of which I look forward to seeing...


To reiterate, This guy elevated himself to one of the Hottest 4 Star Movie Stars of his time that I can’t wait and look forward to seeing the next one of His great movies.


To certain degrees ... everyone makes mistakes at times and everyone has to be graded according to what they've learned from it and (Mark Wahlberg) graduated as a Valedictorian from it ... He is like a professor in using his Talent, Heart, Celebrity and Money to help teach others the values of right thinking and not to make the same mistakes that he made as a teenager growing up on the tuff of His neighborhood of Boston ... again where He  felt like He had to prove himself ... He is the perfect example of how He turned a lemon into lemonade... 


"I didn't want my kids saying ... you didn't finish school ... why do we need to?"


Link Mark Wahlberg article




Interviewer; ....  faith is obviously a big part of your life....

Mark; .... "it's the most important part of my life...

I don't try to push it on anybody and I don't try to hide it".


Don L. Johnson  ....

"this  is  exactly  how  feel  too...

No more ... No less ... God Bless ... they who  do".


And Oh yah, I might add that Mark also earned his high school diploma as well ... of which he obviously didn’t need to with his success ... except for his personal gratification and example for his kids to know, respect and be proud of their dad ...and to that respect, Mark did better than me ... as I'm still only setting with a 9th grade education as he was, but at age 69 ... Its to late for this rhyme of mine ... As you can see ... according to my category,



Ivanhoe Quotes (showing 1-16 of 16)

“For he that does good, having the unlimited power to do evil,

deserves praise not only for the good which he performs, but for the evil which he forbears.” 

 Walter ScottIvanhoe


At age 4 ... success in not peeing in your pants

At age 12 ... success is having friends.

At age 16 ... success is having a driver’s license

At age 20 ... success is having sex

At age 35 ... success is having money

At age 50 ... success is having money

At age 60 ... success is having sex

At age 70 ... success is having a driver’s license

At age 75 ... success is having friends.

At age 80 ... success in not peeing in your pants


I'm  more  concerned  with  keeping  my  driver's  license.

Again ......... I'm not saying to quit school ......... because it's not for you

 I,m saying that school isn't essentially meant  for every one ........ because of a

bad return on investment ............. Any one can Imagine a proper Education with the

right knowledge for thinking .... In that respect .... success is in the Heart of the Beholder.


Last but not least, I just want to say .... Thank Goodness for those Movie Stars .… such as the ones that I know about …. Mark Wahlberg, Ben Affleck, George Clooney, Matt Damon, Brad Pit and Angie Jolie  who have the Heart of Desire and Their Integrity to Admire how they Donate Their Time, Effort and THEIR Money Towards their Compassion for What's Gone Wrong for so Long with Their Cause …. And Speaking for Me of the Middle Class and for the Poor who have class, but lost their ass, because of Heartless-Assholes .... it is  very  much  Appreciated  and  it  brings  a  little  Faith and Hope .... to the Disenchanted with the Gluttonous Greedy Rich of Slanted.


Written and Designed by,


Don L. Johnson



Now that you have a little foresight of knowledge of me .... It's time to work your Imagination too ... So as the saying goes ... you can't judge a book by its cover as.    Well, the same goes true with this my biographical Memoir ... so up unto this point of my life; I’ve spent countless hours in trying to figure myself out in a biographic point of view let alone the time it took for me to quantify in words about my Miracle of life as bestowed.  All I can say is that what (you, my readers of no matter who) are about to read will be about the (truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth about “My life bestowed”. It isn’t easy to word process a brain like mine that was hard to find. However, after much perseverance ... I did find a little piece of it ... so as the saying goes ... “finder’s keeper’s loser’s weepers to my epitaph. Maybe my sense of humor that as of now abounds ... should have been left alone as unfound; but humor does as humor is! It’s that part of me you’ll surely see, but perhaps with you ... it might not do? ... So if you’re sad that’s all too bad! ... because it calms my day ... that’s all I’ll say.  So good bye Joe ... me gotta go ... so you’ll find out ... what I'm all about ... that part of me ... that will have to be ... my legacy humorously  ... that rhymes with my biographical times. A drop of humor can’t hurt anyone and sometimes it can be the cure before the fear of an ailing heart. It’s been the medicine for me humorously, because  an ounce of prevention is better than a gallon of cure in treating depression, sorrow and or gloom from within... to no end ... of what could have been.



Oh Yes ... It is as it was ... and was as it is ... today ... as I remember it ...

Thus ... to write it ... as I've lived it ... throughout my ups ...

throughout my downs ... my life still abounds...


So ... get in gear and Click right here → "My Life Bestowed... of what I've sowed...


The photo in "My Life Bestowedis pretty close to what I looked like within a year or two in the place of time where the space was mine ...  as I always looked younger than my actual age. But, sincerelyI remember being somewhat of an shy-private-kid entering into my playschool kindergarten year ... Except for me, all of the other kids would have parents that would mollycoddle their kids into place with their own favorite blankets or blankee's ... for nap-time on the floor 


Howeverof coursethe teacher would take the role of the parents place as they did with mebut even at that age, I developed a Link → (Self-consciousness) of being able to play or sing my songsconduct live sales meetings and or being a motivational speaker of the successes I've had in sales essays of Link → (The Seven Steps towards Achievement)  My Link → (Acronym P.H.O.N.E.) and My Link → (The Farmer In The Selland of cource for what I write here on my site ... where “I practice what I preach ... then teach what I practice ... within things that are true ... from me to you” ... without having to be there ... where you are. I can write it, but can't recite it - in person - as of what a motivational speaker would do... Besides, nobody can be taught without a motivational thought ... So it doesn't make any difference whether you read it - or hear it - if your Heart - isn't in it ... I know how it goes.


As a kid of being constantly afraid of walking back and forth from school alone to a place I called "the boogieman" ... I would always feel the same with the exception of being run over by four different cars (make or models unknown) at four different times, places and or locations and waking up in an emergency room that I was beginning to get familiar with, But as you can see, God was looking out for me ... This is "NO LIE" that in VIEW ... of being TRUE... Link → The Background of My Downtown Playground ...


Nevertheless, as you read on, I will explain more in detail of how I played with those real cars that toy-iled with me, because I didn't have real toys to play with ... as you will find ... further on ... down the line ... as will be ... in my continued biography. 


I kept thinking of how lucky the other kids were that had parents who cared about them through a place that they took for granted as of a Loving home instead of a tiny two room apartment with a kitchenette the size of a full bathroom ... with very little food in it and cigarettes, alcohol in closing their favorite bar every night until 2:00-am in the morning. Worst of all of having a heartless and abusive step dad that would slap the crap out of me when in the right mood which was often. Just another one of my many blessings to look forward to after school.  


The cruelest thing that I remember about my step-dad was after being drunk ... I would hear my mother telling him that he was hurting her arm from being twisting ... as being twisted himself ... And because there wasn't even room for even a bunk bed ... My bed was on the floor - at the foot of their bed... So in that respect, kindergarten felt more like home to me than to the rest of the kidsI guess that is why that blankee ... had such of a lasting impact on my life - Again, right to this very day...


You knowlooking back and with all things consideredI guess you might say - as a blanketed statement, that I was absolutely floored over the situation of my time and place of space... Ha ha!


I also remember that at the start of each back-to-school year of classes in my first, second and third grades - I would always pick the back role on the far right side by the window of the classroom for my desk ... By eliminating two of the four sides of me ... I knew that I wouldn't be noticed as much by the rest of the kids from what I felt was the embarrassment of not equally of fitting in with them Wellanywayeven though my mind was quite young ... I was still able to do my math ... to it done ... Come onIt's not like ... E = mc2 ... Ebf.


The problem with setting so far back in the room was that I couldn’t hear what the teacher was saying due to the lack of hearing in mainly my left ear from being slapped on that side of my head so many times … As a resultI ended up flunking my first and second grades and was thought to have had a learning disability or an attention deficit … If you will ... And was sent to a special school of disabilities including the Down syndromebut do you know whatWithout knowing what happened to me … I actually felt less intimidated and less inferior of fitting in even though I didn't, but the people who didn't take the time to get to know me did ... including the immediate family members that caused and sent me there... They simply didn't care because in their minds, I was their mistake they had to contend with...


But you know ... even though ... it was obvious that I didn’t belong there by the concerned, competent teachers who knew and cared about me of where I should be and then found that all I had was a lack of hearing in my ears “where I always had excruciating ear aches that hurt like hell further impeding my learning abilities in and out of school” ... Finally, after an aptitude test by a therapist - The therapist got really upset that I was there and wanted answers for the why's ... It was then found after being physically tested then seeing an ear doctor that I had a lack of hearing from blunt trauma to my head - which explained my severe earaches - that - that doctor finally relieved for me - True! I can't remember of having an earache sinse ... Thank goodness for those who cared... 


Oh Well,  I was returned back to a regular public school in the grade that I should have been in from the ones that I flunked, but this time they seated me right in front of the class where the teacher was and from that time on I received more A’s than B’s in just about every subject that I was taught ... Again, that was in the grade that I should have been in all along ... And most importantly,  the key was in the care and understanding of me of which led to my A’s B’s… 



Todayas being a complex person for understandingI still flunk in my understanding of people as understandably of why people do with me ... It's the psychological complex of the problem ... I’ve yet to overcome ... and probably never will with the disability of my age... 


"By the time you're eighty years old you've learned everything.

You only have to remember it"

George Burns


"Look, I don’t feel old and don’t feel anything till noonbecause

that is when it is time for my blankee nap"

Bob Hope



It’s realy amazing how one can remember that far back in timeyet forget the simple things one just did a minute ago ... which proves that time is really relevant to the place-time factorIn other words ... it's the fact that I came back ... to that place of time where it was mine … of what I did as a kid ... as it appears through all these years ... of the childhood memoirs of my memories...


Think about it ... as you too accupy ... place in time - into Einstein's space-time ... It's no rhyme or a riddle ... as in cat and the fiddle ... It's just you with your noodle ... So why abuse it ... when you can use it?  


Inwordly, all I know is that I became a person with very little understanding and will be condemned to go that way until my last dayI’m still wondering why I came into this God-forsaken world of confusion


Outwardly, people are the only species that heartlessly kill, maim and destroy all other species and living things around them through an inborn Power, Greed, Ignorance and Hate ... as succumbed to by the devils bait and haven't the brains to realize it. The only thing that makes sense to me is that from birth ... our souls live ... hell on earth ... untill our next birth ... Link here → Reincarnation and the Bible and Evidence for Reincarnation in the Bible 




To elaborate, as in light years looking forward back in time So too as in my years have I aged with my mind   In my case, age is the fabric of relevance ... equating to my place of time out of Einstein's theory of spacetime … As I’ve never gotten over the feeling of not fitting in with people … There is Indeed no rebuttal ... that I shouldn't have been born into this paradox of muddle. It’s like the hypothesis of my mind that’s been stuck in an anomaly of a time warp that hasn’t moved from the early stages of my life … I am Now seventy one years old and my self-consciousness is even more so in a muddle of my understanding of people.


Unlike humans of the heart of the matter, I would have to say through experience that ... you can have faith in a dog and or a cat with the utmost unbreakable love and loyalty to stand by your side - no matter what and I’ve experienced both in my life time (Pudgy the dog and Tank the cat) and both died and took my utmost loyalty and eternal love with them into pet heaven


All things consideredif I could have three wishes to be granted The first wish would be to be one of God’s right hand angels, simply, because my Heart belongs there...


If I couldn’t have that wish My second wish would be to insert myself into one of my many incredible facinating flying dreams...


Except for certain family members of Love and sincerity, if I couldn’t choose my second wish I would choose my third and final wish to go back in time to July 11, 1944 and somehow prevent myself from coming into this, like I said, Godforsaken world of confusion that I never understood with and or about people?


Other than my Self-consciousness with people, you must have some idea of what I'm talking about and if you don't, you are either denying and lying about the truth to yourself or simply not paying attention to the world around you that has to do with people at large and of late that lives their lives through and for Power, Greed, Ignorance and Hate ... that doesn't have a clue to what is true of what "Integrity" is all about!


Again, could you imagine what humanity would be like ... if we prioritized the meaning of ... "Integrity Thinking" ... into our lives ... For one thing, Congress would be driving on Main Street without obstructions while ... Wall Street would be shut down for repairs




"Ride the Wind"

 below my wings and hear the music as it sings,



Well Written,  Mr. Henry Mancini


As being reincarnated with a free will to choose whatever I would love to do ... It would be to come back as an  with the freedom at will to fly with the thrill of defying gravity in flight ... flying high into the sky as I "Ride the Wind beneath my Wings" I feel the music as it sings ... just as been in all my reoccurring dreams ... I can tell you this ... that there is nothing in this world as a human-being as not being restricted and bound by the gravity to the ground ... as to my experience that I've had in my reoccurring dreams of unrestricted flight ... Oh!, what a sight to behold both day and by night every time I've had that flight, but when guns are near ... it is a fright and fear ... and it's the shame - of heartless human to blame. 


Ride the Wind 

Written  and Composed  by,

Don L.. Johnson






To be or not to be "Eternally" that is the question, but what is the answer? The relevance of time involving us is our lifespan of existence. In this case, time is vital not to be wasteful in the way we use it because, it is limited. Most of us don’t realize the Link The Relevance of Time because, we take it for granted that it’s always going to be there when we need it. It is only when growing older ... we begin to realize The relevance of time in our lives because; we know it’s getting shorter. We begin to prioritize our Time in not being so wasteful of it. Time is preciously the most important valuable possession we could ever own. Yet, we don’t realize its weight in gold a (Figure of speech) as a rule; most of us think of gold in terms of money and clog our minds with the lust for materialism limited to Time and as we abuse it ... we lose it. Time is of age as age is of time brought with wisdom or folly … The question still remains ... as to be or not to be of  "Eternally"

Music  ...Eternally

Written,  and Composed  by,

Don L.. Johnson



"Cedar Rapids, Iowa is where it all began


and to where I will want it to end"



It is important to elaborate on this subject as I have neglected to a acknowledge certain family members particularly in Cedar Rapids Iowa to believe that I could really have such a family like them who could  care about me as I NOW appreciatively realize they do. Even though I've known them for a while, I Finally woke up to reality to be that "comfortable fun loving uncle" As destiny ran its course - the course was led to me ... What a wonderful feeling ... I hope my family as written will take the time to read this - as I am so-so proud of them ... The problem is, I wish that I could be closer to be able to see ALL of them - more often than not... With that said, and for that reason - I know that if something happens to Judy - I will definitely want to move to Cedar Rapids Iowa - whereas if you guys are indeed reading this "you guys reside" ... 


The only thing I ask is to accept me for who I am with God in my life, because God is the only reason why I am still here and alive and have been so blessed despite my horrible childhood memories... I don't try to push my faith in God on anyone, but I don't try to hide it either - as I am who I am... You guys are part of my life now - just as God has obviously destined - so let destiny work his course - OK?


 I know that at times I can make a fool of myself  "Like singing in front of large crowds", but I promise you that if I do - my Heart means well and will be a part of it - and don't worry as I've learned my lesson over the singing (depart) of it ...



And so ... My Biographical Story Begins


Psychologically; Other than being completely oblivious to what the normalcy of a family structure was or all about as a child growing up into a world without parental guide-ness ... And Regarding the haves and haves not's, there has been a maladjusted gap in my self-esteem, especially the self-consciousness of who I am as person of equality to the haves. As result, I have been overly sensitive with guarded feelings to the matter, thus creating a shell of a needless shield of protection around me of which pretty much made me a solitary man of loneliness among friends and family members, but the positive side of me was and still is to excel outside of my solitary shell in pursuits of happiness ... After all, I'm not getting younger ... I'm getting older and older and worser and worser with my attitude of successes  as being set in my ways in a dizy-dizy-daze and So ... I think my biggest success is my immediate family and realized it ... its the only thing that I could take with me of value ... when the saints come marching in ... But still,  whether Good or Bad ... you NEVER ... EVER! ... forget your childhood memories ... that is ... if you please, get Alzheimer's disease  ...

For you philosophical pragmatists, it’s not a matter of getting over it, because if I could have ... I would have, remember  I’m the other puppy”. Again, as being a loner, it’s not part of my nature to comfortably blend in with the insiders of my life let alone the outsiders of friends of friends of no friends of mine in get-to-gathers, of any sort, as I self-destruct with embarrassment. I’ve always been that way ever since I was a kid in grade school of wishing I was equal to my teeny-tiny to more adult size class mates. I can assure you that I am not a socializer whereas I have to mingle with people socially... But I'm going to try to do better...

As far as guidance goes in my life, I had none other than God’s who sent me to the Durand Boys Farm School at the age of fifteen. As a train of thought, review my web-site and you will find that this unlikely locomotive front runner of achievement was the back-end-caboose that didn’t have a track to run on for the kind of a fantasy world of dreams and wishes that most others that I knew took for granted with their Life, Love and security of belonging to their family that I embarrassingly lacked.


If I truly believed that I had a Guardian Angel of protecting and maintaining the front locomotive of my later modest life’s achievements, then why wouldn’t I believe that my caboose wouldn’t be attached to it? There’s no magic to this, right thinking is the railroad to success and accomplishments and if wisely chosen, the locomotive will be the driving force to get you there. In my case, I chose to hop onto the right train going in the right direction into my made-believe world of realism that I would control, thus departing from my made-belief fantasy world of idealism that I couldn’t. Success, personal accomplishments and achievements were one of the same that became the essence of my being with a driven need and desire to be the best of the best at it. There were no negotiations from that pledge that I made to myself in the ... "Durand Boy’s Farm School" of 1959 - 1960 ... to become a reality...




Synopsis: It was from 1950-1958 through the ages of six through eight with the feelings of not belonging, alone, scared, hungry, a mistake, a burden, unwanted, uncared for, unguided, and most of all, unloved and hugged with a normal family life that I longed for that just wasn’t to be. It was the same period of time when I was hit and run over the four different times and locations by the rowdy-cars that controlled the busy streets and alleys of my cement-play-ground.


This was right smack-dab in the middle of the shopping area of downtown Rockford, IL where all the traffic was, at that time. The Background of My Downtown Playground You see, other than convenience stores, there were no such things as in or outdoor shopping malls, strip centers of any sort anywhere outside of the downtown area in those days.


Again, all the main stores, theaters and traffic that you see today were found down town. Again, as the link to my Downtown Playground explains ... I lived in a tiny two room apartment one or two blocks away from the taverns where my mother and callous stepdad frequented almost on a daily routine until the bars closed at 1:00 AM, excluding Sunday’s of course of being closed. I explicitly remember setting at this window all day and night being hungry with nothing to do. You see, there was no such thing as televisions (or at least not in my little corner of the window) in those days to help alleviate the boredom. I had no toys to enjoy either; however I really got good at playing twiddle my thumbs though. All I had was to wait and watch out the same window in fear for my cruel drunken stepdad to come staggering down the street with my mother in arm after the bars closed at 1:00 AM.


You can use your imagination of what happened then, because cruelty was exactly what this guy was all about and he enjoyed it especially when drunk,  for example, I remember him twisting my mother’s arm until the pain was so severe that she begged him to stop. WHAT KIND OF A SICK MAN IS THAT? ... YET TRUE!


This is what I had to helplessly listen to on the floor at the foot of their bed where I slept in fear. I could go on to tell you how cruel he was to me, but I won’t. If I did, you would understand where my complex came from in being treated like a burden of disappointment into anger. Being slapped across the face was routine and this guy was big and burly as I was just a little kid small and scrawny. All I know is that I got ear aches frequently ... In fact became deaf in my left ear, because of it, However as I grew older, I became vulnerable to less than honest older kids that I looked up to for the feeling of belonging thus, choosing to be dishonest myself, until the entrance of  "The Durand Boy’s Farm School" ... in the year of 1959 to 1960 at the age of fifteen.


It was then and for the first time in my life that I felt equal to everyone else without the parity of not belonging. There were no preferences, we were all treated the same. I felt like an individual person of worth for the first time in my short fifteen years of life and it was all because of the caring teachers and staff members of that school that saw the good in me and brought it out. I have NOTHING, but good and respectful memories of and for that School. The photos at the bottom left side are of the "Rosecrance Memorial Home for children" in New Milford, IL right outside of Rockford and the one on the right side was my "Durand Boys Farm School" of 1959 to 1960. I say mine, because it was where I lived for a year and learned the value of the Integrity Thinking who I was and would be, thus to plan my work then work my plan around the inspirational "Knowledge" and memories as was implanted within me.



Durand Farm School for Boy’s 1959  to 1960


10104 Farm School Rd. "The Boy’s Farm School" was founded in 1907 in Harrison Township as a school and residential rehabilitation services center for maladjusted boys,” In the Farm School’s early decades, resident boys performed nearly all of the chores necessary for Farm operation. A portion of the crop went to feed the resident boys. While the remainder was sold to cover the School’s operating expenses. Herds of beef, cattle and flocks of chickens were kept to provide fresh meet and eggs.


The Winnebago county Farm School, later operated as the Durand Boy’s Farm School for the boys, was sold to the Rockford based Rosecrance health Network in 1973 and the Des Plains-based Maryville academy in 1989. The facility was operated as a residential treatment facility offering therapeutic, education, and recreation services to the youth ages 7-18.


The photo of the building that you see was the original Boys Farm School’s Barracks of Sleeping Quarters, Mesh-Hall of Dining and the Rec-Room of Recreation center combined into one building.


The third floor had 3 dorms separated by age categories.   My dorm was called the bears with boys from 15 to 18 years of age, the Tigers of 12 to 14 years of age and the very young Pee-wee’s of 7 to 11 years of age where some of them actually wet their bed’s from there, you guessed it,pee-wee’s”. Other than the separated few of the PC’s (Privileged Characters) dorm-rooms, there were approximately 25 kids per dorm depending on the number of kid’s in the age categories.


The boys were not all as maladjusted some were homeless. An assigned dorm-daddy controlled the dorm’s activities in keeping everyone in line including the radio, noise and lights-out etc. To the start of the day, instead of a trumpet wakeup call, the alarm would go off each morning at six am the bunks were then made up military style the same way and time as a boot-camp-military-barracks we showered and headed for mesh-hall on the first floor for breakfast the best dog gone home-cooked-food you could ever eat or ask for”.


It was the same for lunch and dinner. “Don Erickson was the head cook and also happened to be the head of my table of twelve. Likewise, as of the same responsibilities of a dorm daddy, the head of the table had the same. The food always starting from the head of the table and it was passed on to the left side and back around to the front ... After the breakfast, you would do your chores then go to class ... At noon was lunch and 5:00 pm was supper and the end of the day right after supper or dinner if you will, would be the rec-room time in the basement ex. Pool ... of which I quickly became the master, because I had a natural instinct for it Ping-Pong or outdoor sport activities Etc. At 8:00pm, the alarm would sound to go back to the dorms to sleep only to awake to the start of another day of the same. My boot training was like that for a year and in retrospect, I have no regretful memories of it as it was good training.


I remember that the  Boys Farm School Building  had a  Hugh porch on the back of it (as shown in the photo above) over-looking its sports field and its farm buildings and animal’s right beyond it. Although I was glad to have been released from the regimented boot-training-camp part of it, I would love to occasionally return for a visit if only to reminisce those days, but the building is no longer there and it’s the only reason why I would go back to visit ... just to be able to walk through that building again.


As time would have it, ignorance is as ignorance does through the stupidity of tearing down that structurally solid Historical-Iconic-Residential-Home that took loving care of its Boys for all those years from 1907 - just to make room for a parking lot of which never materialized, it was a stupid-stupid-stupid inept act of betrayal to the Boy’s Farm School building!


It was also an insensitive act of betrayal to all of its former residence boys that is forever rooted to its foundation from within their period of time. They not only demolished that building, but they demolished the names of all those boys that were historically a part of it. Today, there is a grassy hill where their home once proudly stood without a tombstone to mark its destruction, but with appreciative memories, it will forever be remembered in the hearts of all those boys who loved it for how it loved them.


As for me from within my period of time of 1959 to 1960...  What I had  there with (equal standing) was much better than the bad memories outside of it that I left behind me. Again,  it was my life and home for a year and it was like sending me to an educational-boarding-school of care, love, guidance and respect that I needed and that is how and the way I will always remember it from my Heart and I am proud to have become a part of its history.


It was towards the end of a  year of which was  the norm stay  at the school  when I was  given a  note stating that I was to be released in a week. Of course, I was ecstatic with excitement to the news; however it was short lived, because they made a mistake of giving it to the wrong person me of which was supposed to be my nephew Gary instead.


You see, it  was the  initiative of  his  parents  who got  the  minister  of their  church involved  to influence the courts for his release and it obviously worked. This was a double whammy which sent me into the dumps of depression, because I knew that I had more than earned my way to be released as well, but I had no one on the outside that cared enough to look out for me, as he did ... Keep in mind that Gary's mother was my sister, but it was the school that looked out for my best interest.


The following day after his release, the principal of the school got me out of class in the middle of the day and took me off-grounds to a local restaurant to cheer me up. He then told me that he was representing himself, my teacher and all the staff members of the school to not to be discouraged or depressed as they would be getting me out. He went on to tell me that he and they cared for me as a kid that they grew to like, admire and respected. He told me that I would someday become successful in my endeavors of whatever I chose to do in life, because I had it within me to accomplish my goals and to never  forget  his  words and as you can review you will conclude, I didn’t.


Yes, true  to his  word, I  was  released  a couple  of  weeks  later and  with  a  new prospective-outlook  to look forward to that was implanted in my head by that principal that day of 1960. It was from that period of time on ... that I realized the principles of  Integrity Thinking through "they" at the school that inspired me.


With all  the odds  stacked against  me and  losing my  safe haven  from the  people who  stuck by fought and cared for me, at the time. I left with a driven enthusiasm and focused all my attention to never let them or myself down to become my personal success story that - that principal instilled in me. I programmed myself with a positive mental attitude to live and think that way and did right to this very day, over fifty-four years ago.Holy-mole Guacamole the recipe of getting older”. I can honestly say that NOBODY out performed my quest to be the best of the best in my competitive livelihood and for those of you who doubt or question my credibility, check out the documented Link Achievement and Media section of this my website.


Lastly, I don’t believe in God -because of the Bible ... I believe in the Bible - because of God Likewise, I don’t believe in the Durand Boys Farm School because of ME ... I believe in ME, because of the Durand Boys Farm School As both have done me right to guide me through the light that lit in my heart to give me the confidence of a brand new start in a life that I could control the results With that said, it just wouldn’t be right to keep my Biographical Story to myselfwould it?




The following are employment positions on my site that should be noted, I just turned 17 when I got out of the Boys farm-school and quickly realized that nothing had changed except for me. How could I go back to school when I didn’t even have a home to go back to? However as destiny would have it, I had a very good friend looking out for me Jerry Dulgar who lived with his aunt and uncle in Arlington Hts, a suburb of Chicago. He not only helped me with a place to stay with him at his aunt and uncles house, but he also got me my first job at the age of 17 where he worked at Charles Brunning/Bosch Corp… a paper manufacturer for copy machines etc. in Mount Prospect, IL, another suburb of Chicago.



I got  the second  shift job of folding reams of copy paper for copy machines the whole monotonous 8 hour shift. I remember being right below the clock where I was folding those reams of paper, the most tedious boring thing I’ve ever done. I had this guy Mike next to me doing the exact same job as me, but he seemed to be content with it. Then there was this opening that became available that my buddy Jerry had on the first shift as a setup man for the paper cutting machinist. Because of Mike’sseniority, the supervisor offered him the position and he took it; however I really wanted it in the worse way, because my friend Jerryworked it on the first shift. It had the freedom from the monotonous tedious work of wrapping paper in one spot the whole shift. The only incentive I had with folding paper was achieving the next break from it and of course that is why the clock was right above my head to keep track of it for me. Again, the setup position had the freedom of space, fun and the rewarding challenge that I could enjoy, but yet to be determined. Mike turned down the position a couple of hours later and returned to the same repetitive position that he left and I hated?


I then begged  the supervisor to  give me the opportunity  to try for it and he dismissively said son you’re too small to handle the position ... being that I was a skinny kid of 130 pounds 5' 7" including the hamburger and fries in me. He went on to tell me that the position needed a much larger person than me to handle it, but because of my unrelenting persistence, he caved in against his misconceived judgment of me and my ability and I got my opportunity to prove myself. He briefly went over my job description of setting up the machinist machines of which I already surmised. Now visualize a wall, two stories high - a block long with racks of LARGE rolls of paper in-between their designated slots about five to seven rolls high. Each roll of paper had a center hole in it so that a steel shaft rod could be fed through it, thus enabling the crane on the track to do its job of hanging them into their designated slots on the wall. I knew that it would be fun to ride and operate it. So his training on that part of my job was like a theme park. However when he took me through these humongous swinging doors that was literally large enough for a full grown elephant to fit through them. I quickly understood his comments about my size;  NO, those rolls of paper were intimidating to look at - let alone with the consideration of skinny kid handling them. They were just setting there on the floor like a predator of a beast waiting for another feast to devour.





If you've ever tried to lift a case of 10 reams of copy paper - you would then know how heavy they are ... Now, imagine a combined 100+ cases of it ... Well, that's at least how heavy one of those roles were ... Now, imagine a skinny 130 pound runt of kid 5'7" tall of trying to lift one of those rolls of paper up and onto a 4" high Steel Cradled Dolly to be able to roll it to its destination ... Well, I can tell you that it was like 100% of Inspiration-Determination versus 200% of Perspiration-Desperation of my willpower they got it done and I can assure you that it wasn't very merry fun... 


Yah, it suddenly occurred to me that I would have to  read up on the book of David and Goliath and get some pointers on what to do. Anyway, like my boss first pointed out to me, that it was my job to man handle those gargantuan elephant size rolls of paper up and into this three inch high steel cradled dollies to be able to roll them through those now understood humongous doors to the crane that did all the easy-fun-work for me, But first I had to figure out how to lift those gargantuan size rolls up and into those heavy steel cradled dollies without having the strength of a Samson or Goliath. 


I explicitly remember all the  machinist giggling as I went through those intimidating doors, but at the time, I wasn’t concerned with their giggling in as much as envisioning an out and out laughter of my humiliating defeat of coming back out of those swinging doors with nothing but defeat and humiliation In dire straits, I was all alone in battling those gargantuan rolls. I pushed and I pulled and pulled and I pushed for more than half the shift and all I managed to do is to get it to roll a LITTLE faster bumping to the lip of the dolly, but to my chagrin, I still couldn’t win a fraction of the three inches that I needed to lift it up and into the cradle of the dolly. At last by accident to my awakening surprise, I found my knee to be in the exact center of the roll of gravity for the leverage I needed to lift the first roll up and onto the cradled dolly. I was so excited and happy with my accomplishment to the point of focusing in on the giggling machinists.


So I knee leveraged all fifteen of those sissy rolls onto the cradled-dollies before I rolled the first one out through those less intimidating doors past the machinist, Whistling Dixie land and with the crane doing all the fun work for me, I placed it into its designated slot on the wall. I went back through those NOW unintimidating doors one by one in succession until I had them all hanging in their designated slots on the wall and having fun doing it ... in a shorter amount of time that it took for me to figure it out.


Right before I started to set-up the first machine, (they) all the machinist stopped their machines and went to the front of them and applauded me like a seven machine salute, the GREATEST feeling of all...


True to life story ... with my pledge to glory that I made to myself as was inspired by the words of that Principal and staff members at "The Durand Boys Farm School"



My second job at the age of nineteen was with Valspar paint Corporation of Rockford, IL in the shipping and receiving department filling orders by pulling heavy cases of paint onto pallets. Because I always pulled the largest orders that were placed on the bench-counter. At the end of the day at least half of the dock was filled by me out of three different departments of fifteen of us ... the head manager was so impressed with my performance that he gave me a ten cent per hour raise with a promotion of supervisor over my department. However I was so impressed with his performance of recognizing me that I paid him back with my resignation. NO NOT ME!... If you pay peanuts you get monkeys and I wasn’t about to let him monkey around with me that way with disrespect! ... Again, true story.


My third job was with Pepsi Cola of Rockford, IL as the newly developed fountain syrup rep. I was hired by my boss Lyle White (a man of Integrity) who I still admire as the best boss that I ever worked for as an employee. I remember right after I was trained and on my own, Lyle went on vacation and he ask me to take care of things while he was gone and I gave him my word that I would.


The following Monday of his vacation, I drove onto the parking lot to go to work only to be greeted by union picketers who told me that I wouldn’t be working except for picketing with them before I had a chance to park. I briefly told them that I had no idea that there was going to be union started let alone striking with them and that I’ve only been with Pepsi for three weeks. I was immediately challenged and got out of my automobile right there where they stopped me and said, we might as well get this over with right now, because I don’t break my word to anyone let alone my boss whom I liked and respected. I’m going to work and you guys can do whatever you want, but going to work So don’t mess with me or my vehicle! You know, I crossed over that picket line every single day even after Lyle’s vacation was over and they never once messed with me or my vehicle. I’m sure that I would have gotten my (buttocks) kicked if they chose to do so, but they didn’t and that’s all that mattered to me. Lyle and I firmly stood by one another from then on for 6 years. In retrospect, it would have been a good company to have retired from with good  pay and benefits ... Again, (True story).


My fourth job was with Muller Pinehurst dairy in Rockford, IL as a home delivery milkman. Four o’clock in the morning 5 Days a week, I loaded my milk truck for home delivery. I had a hundred and seventy six stops a day. I remember this promotion that they ran that was four weeks before Christmas. It was a rose-milk hand cream contest made of milk.


There were forty-two routes involved and myname was one of them on this big board hanging on the wall. After reviewing it, I told the drill sergeant my supervisor that I was going to win it and he told me along with a few others that there was only one guy that always wins it each and every year, as though I was defeated before I begun. Never the less, it gave me more incentive to topple this guy that they had on his pedestal. With knowing that it ran for four weeks before Christmas, I sold them to my customers with the selling point of buying them as Christmas presents for themselves, friend and loved ones.


However, I have to admit that I was a little devious in how I sold them being that I had four weeks to win it in. The end result is what mattered to me. So with my drill sergeant reminding me week by week that I was behind; I gradually crept up on his figures one week at a time by controlling my customers ordering habits. I had the largest amount of them turn their orders in on the last week of it, leaving me the winner and champion of the whole world, mine! In the end, nobody was close to his figures and he wasn’t close to mine, however they were right about him, but wrong about me, because I proved my word to my faithless drill sergeant that I would win it and convincingly did.



There was no doubt in my mind after that sales contest that I didn't belonged in sales, because I enjoyed the feeling of success and being Number One, as I did at the Boys Farm School. Not only did I win the sales contest by a wide margin, but I also came home with more money than I collected for the company through the tips that I received that week from my appreciative customers. I expected a solute from my drill sergeant, but I didn’t get it, I guess, because of my rank. I left Muller’s shortly after to successfully run a Maxwell House Coffee Company a few years ... (Again, true story).


When I was at the Boys Farm School I decided that I would become a food salesman, because I guess I loved food. Anyway, I how, who and where do I do it with? So after a little research, I found that Dierks Food was the largest and most known and based out of Rockford ... I applied and was turned down ... So that became my goal to gain their respect. I did so by opening the market for Illinois Fruit and Vegetable the largest Institutional food company in the State. It didn't take me long before I got the attention of the guy (Ron Dierks) who turned me down for employment, because he rapidly started losing business. As it turned out, I started having a problem with an unprincipled supervisor that wanted me to be the same ... So parted company on a Friday and not wanting loose the business that I built.


I audaciously went over to Ron’s house uninvited that Saturday and told him that I needed to get started with him on Monday so not too loose business ... we settled on what I wanted for wages and an expense account and that Monday after the usual sales meeting ... I went on the road without any training and put their sales binder together while retaining my accounts. To make long story short, I was with Dierks for Nine years and was his top rep from the first on…


I won the sales achievement award every year, had many letters of recognition such as Eckrich, Oscar Meyer, National Institutional Food Distributor Association, Inc. of Nifda, Won every sales contest and the highest honor of being recognizes as the salesman of the month in the ID magazine nationwide of every food distributor in the U.S. … the proudest accomplishment, because you have to be the best in order to be in it. I was never satisfied with my accomplishments and had to go into new markets to continue to build and I never did it for the money, because I was on a salary so no matter how much I built my pay remained the same.


I loved the coffee business from J&S coffee service that I ran several years earlier ... So I went to work for the Standard Coffee Service the largest coffee service in the U.S. based out of New Orleans’s LA. for five years. Every year they have the Awards for excellence held different locations at popular places such as Golf shores and Washington DC etc ... I attended all of them and have the plaques hanging on my walls to remind me. I remember the very first ceremony was held at a prestigious place in New Orleans with my wife and me. The top rep achiever was kiddy corner from me and I pointed him out to my wife and told her who he was and that I was going to dethrone him and and dethrone him I did and again became the best of the best ... Again, I have the proof in the pudding hanging on my walls in my office.


I was with ADT(A Great Company) just for a short amount of time … justlong enough to complete their ADT University Certificate of Achievement I would probably have stayed, but I’m an outdoor person and the training was too long and I went back to Standard Coffee service after I set ADT up with their Coffee Service I know that it was a bad deal for ADT, but I’m used to training myself on the job. A wolf is meant to be free to roam the wilderness and so am I where we’re home the best. I bought Fitz Dry cleaners and worked it for five years, the worst mistake in my life as I was defrauded in it only to build it where it finally became profitable enough to sell it.


Lastly, is of my biggest challenge of retirement to what you are now reading and (My Garden of Love) and believe me when I saythat the two are pretty much taking up all of my time and not even for a dime, WOW!    Except that I am satisfying my heart NOW  .



What I have done  has literally been a continuation from the job in the hot laundry room at the “Boy’s farm School” that I volunteered for. I made dorm daddy, head of the table and PC’S (privilege characters) of the schools highest honors.


Again, they gave a sense of worth and I liked the feeling as being a winner not a loser. The numerous plaques, awards, rewards, letters of appreciation and magazine articles of recognition from all over the world that I received throughout my currier, are all hanging on the walls of my office to remind me that I fulfilled that promise that I made to myself inspired by the “Boys Farm School” in 1959/1960 and again, if curiously interested, they are all on my website under the Accomplishment/Media section of my website for you to review to prove my view.


Today my life is quite different from my childhood fantasy world of idealism. Although I’m not monetarily rich like, Bill Gates. I am rich in fulfilling the life that I longed for “once in a lullaby” as in “The wizard of OZ”.


Again, I have flying dreams all the time and they are incredibly real when I have them. In fact I look forward to going to sleep like viewing my favorite movie ... I must have flown over my rainbow where my dream came true in one of them, because my troubles melt like lemon drops to where you find me today with my life fulfilled with reality. If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow why, oh why can’t I? Well, with God’s help, I’m living my dream which I made come true from the yellow brick road of hope. I am now kept focused on the things that inspire me like my compositional essay writings, my music and my “Garden of Love” family.



Fraternities can have differing degrees of secrecy, mine is that scholastically revealed, (I have nothing more than a ninth grade education) Yet, I’ve still done very well in comparison! But I found that it isn’t a secretive requirement of God’s entry level position into his heaven with Jesus Christ as my professor. I may have my faults and believe me I DO, but basically I am a good person within my heart, but have an attitude problem against things that bother me.


To reiterate, as an initiation into my exclusive (Club of Bewilderment): you must answer the following question wisely; A smart person (he or she) is smart enough to know he’s smart, but a dumb person is often too dumb to know he’s dumb, so he thinks he smart, but he’s not. So both of them think they’re smart, but only one is really smart while the other is dumb. So here’s my question: Do you think you’re smart? If you do, is it because you are smart and you know it or because you’re actually too dumb to know how dumb you are, “so what up doc” are you theoretically smart, truly smart, a smart aleck, a wise cracker with an ego problem or dumb   founded enough to qualify for my club’s membership?



   "How to Have a Positive Mental Attitude"

What is Attitude? It's the inclination toward Positive or Negative ways of thinking.


"Positive thinking" is a process of choosing Positive emotions from stimuli in the environment and applying them to perceptions and beliefs. The objective is to create an outlook that translates into a new or better chosen reality. Make a list of the positive aspects in your life. Include your achievements, articles, rewards or plaques and hang them on the wall if you have them .... like I did.  If you are a humorous with good jokes ha ha ... put that on your list. If you enjoy sports, gardening, playing the piano, guitar, tennis, baseball, basketball, football, pool or whatever etc. ... put those on the list; whatever you’re self-interests and or talents and love are, include those aspects in your life. Make a long detailed list of everything that you do well or at least that is not negative ...  Again, like I did and Read the list when you need a mental boost.


"The bearable parable of me   Two puppy’s fall into a tub of milk; one climbs out as in doubt. The other stays in to learn to swim, around and around faster and faster until the milk churned into cream. You see, the moral to be, is the other was me” Believe me, there is nobody harder on me than me and if I were born double jointed ... I would have physically kicked my gluteus Maximus (buttocks) many times in my life. However, there is no way that I would allow ANYONE else to take part in it, as I have a thing about that ... that makes me fight back.


I also have a thing about not letting ANYONE humorously looking down on me as I do a good job of that myself. Even so, my dignity, honor and respect are the positive parts of my character that I would defend to the end. Nevertheless, I am who I am and that’s all who I am and I’m strong to the finish without eating me spinach, but I’m not Popeye the sailor man ... I'm just the man who dooooed it - toot - toot!



Look, I’ve made plenty of mistakes throughout my life and still do, but, as a rule; I’ve been able to learn, comprehend and adjust from them to become a better person for it. I keep to myself and when I can’t, I don’t take advantage of others out of the shame of selfish gain, that’s one mistake I’ve left behind me long ago as a snot nose kid of fifteen ... Although I’ve strived to be preeminent with my life’s ambitions and have successfully done so; I’ve still, yet, to overcome my complex. Even so, scholastically, I don’t claim to be the smartest guy on the block, but scholarly, I’ve been the wisest in or outside of it “where it matters” so I don’t have to look up to anyone, unless they’re taller than me of which is very familiar ... being that I'm only 5' 7"  tall


As a believer in Jesus Christ, keep in mind that a careful reading of the New Testament suggests that He was a scholar learned in the Scriptures and religious literature of the period of time, which was a varied. Yet the popular view of Jesus is that He was a simple, uneducated character from provinces. The most likely source of Jesus education may have been the synagogue school in Nazareth (not the prestigious schools of today’s society). The schoolmaster in the small Jewish towns was the hazzan, or reader in the synagogues.


Again, Jesus frequented little the higher schools of the scribes or sopherim (Nazareth had perhaps none of them), and He had none of those titles which refer, in the eyes of the vulgar, the privileges of knowledge. It would, nevertheless, be a great error to imagine that Jesus was what we call ignorant!  Scholastic education among us today, draws a profound distinction, in respect of personal worth, between those who have received and those who have been deprived of it through a supercilious attitude. No matter whom we are, what our status and where were from or at, I know that the most prestigious education one can receive in today’s society is only transitory ... so scholastically for me, it really doesn’t matter into the heavenly world of tomorrows given that; JesusChrist will remain my professor.



Here’s one for you as an initiation into my exclusive “Club of Bewilderment” but you must answer the following question wisely;(A smart person (he or she) is smart enough know their smart, but a dumb person is often too dumb, so they think their smart, but they’re not. But only one of them is ... while the other is really dumb … So the question is, do you think you’re smart? And if you do … is it because you are smart and you know it or because you’re too dumb to know how dumb you are). So what up doc? ... Are you theoretically smart, truly smart, a smart aleck, a wise cracker with an ego problem or dumb founded enough to qualify for my Club’s membership ?


So Life goes on! just figure it out and make the best of it I told myself, but without taking advantage of others out of selfish gain; do it with the Dignity, Honor and Respect of Integrity thinking and like “a good listener” I did from 1959 to this present day (pen-in-head) conversion into (Microsoft Word's) Biography. (Integrity) is to “Believe what you say and say what you believe from your “Heart” then live and act upon it ... in reference ONLY to my life of bewilderment, I can honestly say that I’ve caught myself many times in my life for one reason or the other wondering what I did wrong to deserve the bad things that was happening to me at the time ... things I had no control over ... especially as child.


I questioned myself of why I was here, what my purpose was, is there really a GOD and if so, why does he let bad things happen to us? ...We've only got certain time allotted us to understand and get it right ... if not ... we come back ... to enact it again and again ... till we get it right ... Yes, read near the end of page 4 of my Home-pages and you'll find that ... I believe in reincarnation ... and the reason why I do with scriptures ... It's the only thing that makes sense to me fervently ... that explains the whys?


“Time is of age as age is of time brought with wisdom to mind” Ref; Click on my essays, The Relevance of Time & (The treasures of today ... I guess mine was brought with the wisdom to be able to learn, comprehend, know and understand my own little corner of the world through my reasoning process on the do’s, deeds and cries of my why’s throughout my life. For instance, how could I not believe in GOD’s miracles of hope, his angel of Love, compassion guidance and protection, throughout my life when I have inexplicably experienced them all without the guidance and the love of responsible parents looking out for me as a child?


For instance, being hit and run over four different times and locations as a child of five to eight years old and all four times I woke up in an emergency room with nothing more than bumps, scratches and bruises.


Think about it and ask yourself what are the chances of survival with that many times let alone one. Was it a stroke of luck, the luck of the Irish, chance, fate, fortune or was it divine intervention? It’s not only sound judgment to logically believe in the latter, but in my heart I know and feel it.


Ironically, with a possible fifth boot-hill rodeo event to prevent in the horizon! I began to realize that hey! This is not good and going nowhere? Because for some reason, them-thar “rowdy-bruiser of cruisers” obviously didn’t like sharing their trail with me, however after I reckoned how not to wrangle and tangle with them. My mule train learned how to get along with them thar doggies to have happier trails that we could share with one another until we met again and that's the way it's been.


Another time as a teenager in the dark of night, I remember being with five buddies driving recklessly in an automobile way beyond the speed limit approaching a narrow bridge called (Trash Bridge) with steel rails on both sides only to find another automobile from a distance blocking it. 


The narrow bridge had barely enough room to allow one automobile over it, let alone two. There was NO WAY that we could have survived a direct crash on it especially at the speed we were traveling at estimated at eighty or ninety miles an hour. When reaching that bridge, I just closed my eyes and said good bye and somehow when I opened them, we were swerving back and forth from side to side over that bridge. We pulled over to the side of the road and none of us six survivors said a word, because we all knew that something miraculously happened that saved our posse from the reckoning of boot hill ... I still can't believe it right to this very day!


I remember another occasion when I was about twelve years old. I climbed this cliff in a quarry that was approximately 30 to 50 feet from the ground with nothing but rocks and boulders below. When I reached the top of that cliff to pull myself up, the grass let loose from my hands and I started falling backwards only to find a big tree-branch protruding out from the rocks in the exact place where I quickly grabbed onto that saved me once more from the fate of boot hill.


I’m not blind, but why didn’t I use that branch in the first place when itwas in the obvious place to pull myself up? And it was a BIG branch! I know that that day was one of another unexplained miracle in my life, because tree branches don’t suddenly grow out of rocks and it had to because it wasn't there! I still cringe when I think of that cliff with its tree-branch sticking out from it, now and forever sticking in the memory of my head instead. There were other incidences, but none so pronounced as these, however, all I can say is, I’m not a cat with nine lives, but I know at least that I've had five


Sometimes we win and sometimes we lose? However in my case, I would have to be illogically impaired not to believe that I didn’t have a guardian angel looking after me from the moment I entered into this God forsaking world related to the science of athletics which of course, became part of my studious scholarly technology, but I’m still not positively sure about the do’s and whys of my ups and downs without a purpose, rhyme or a reason, unless it is for me to care enough to share my stuff in lieu to construe to you "my scholastic readers" to the awakening of your own corner of the world of bewilderment.


Again, anyone can hypothesize that all these events’ “were just a stroke of luck or as luck would have itin an auspicious state, but it would be like saying that miracles don’t happen when they actually do. For instance, take a good look in a mirror of yourself and on a beautiful clear night gaze up into the sky and view the awesome display of lights a marvel, wonder and phenomenon of just a teeny-tiny part of our galaxy alone.


Now consider the rest of the universe with billions upon billions of galaxies and each galaxy houses billions upon billions of stars or “Suns” and our teeny-tiny galaxy the “Milky way” that houses our teeny-tiny solar system with eight planets revolving around its Sun including our teeny-tiny planet Earth with our teeny tiny body's that you wouldn't be able to find in micro scope in comparison. There are literally more stars in our universe than that are grains of sand on every single beach on Earth ... Yet here we are among the perfect star. THINK about it.


If we have eight planets revolving around our considered dwarf Sun, how many planets are actually revolving around the other billions upon billions of Sun’s outside of our own solar system? It could be trillions upon trillions of planets in comparison.


When I refer to teeny-tiny, consider that our Sun is one million times larger than that of our own planet Earth and one thousand times larger than the planet Jupiter the second largest planet in our solar system and yet our sun is scientifically proven to be a dwarf Sun in comparison to others out there in the universe. Now, consider our teeny-tiny planet Earth with its biodiversity of all of its living organism's including ourselves that houses our microscopic-brain with the intellect to be able to scientifically connect all the dots and pieces with it?


Yet we have yet to scientifically discover inhabitable life forms any-ware else in or outside of our solar system as did the Greek philosopher Aristotle mastered physics (Aristotelian Physics) in (384 BC - 322 BC) proceeded by Nicola us Copernicus, Galileo, Isaac Newton, Albert Einsteinand Steven Hawking and others were in their time.


These Guys were the brains of science throughout history. Point being, what is unintelligent about "The Intelligent Design of the Universe & Nature? Where did these scientific-intellectual geniuses come from? Well, they came from the very sub-atomic particles that they studied through their physics of the origin of the universe - ref read my essay of The Hypothesis Theory of Cosmology for further understanding. According to their physics of science, we are all made of “star stuff”, but how did “we star stuff” end up alive with a scientific brain to connect all the scientific dots with it




Do you suppose it was from Einstein’s equation of;"E=mc square" (Enormous = Massive Celebrities of Hollywood’s “Star stuff”? = squared off with the energy of eating pie at the speed of light, thus equivalent to “H = ss2 x efc square = Hollywood’s “star stuff” to enormous fat celebrities”? .... Or conversely of God’s equation of .... E = IDxUN (Expository of the = Intelligent Design x Universe & Nature = God’s recipe of pie squared off = to the biodiversity of our perfection. What say you?  



So,  intellectually, are  you  going  to  tell  me  that  there  isn’t  a  higher  intelligence  other  than  unadorned  physics? No way José’ I am a firm believer in the compatibility of God’s physics of “The Intelligent Design of the Universe & Nature”. You and I are alive with a brain to be able to approach and solve complex problems with solutions through the intellect of an inherent ratiocinative reasoning process. Philosophically, think logically, however keep in mind that it isn’t a matter of “mind over matter” that matters, but it’s the matters of the mind that matters, intellectually, Again, don’t be bewildered, Read It Again! we’re not the 65 million year old dinosaur birds of a feather that flock together that dined on the insects of his Natural Selection; ... It was the evolution of non-human species and mechanisms of the time ... 


Remember that the difference is that "we, the (human species) have a soul" with God's plan ... Thus is what sets us apart ... from the very start ... as time is of God as God is to time, Science, Physics and Astronomy ... In short, if  "God" doesn't exist ... than neither do we.


Darwin did not believe that evolution follows a predetermined direction or that it has an inevitable goal. His explanation was that evolution occurs as a result of Natural Selection implied that chance plays a major role. He understood that it is a matter of luck whether any individuals in a population have variations that will allow them to survive and reproduce. If no such variations exist, the population rapidly goes extinct because it cannot adapt to a changing environment of which with commonsense - I also believe, however, because of what we human species have done to the environment that we live in, a couple of good examples are the ... GREED of BP Oil etc., The Deforestation due to the Lumber Industry and worst of all, The warning of Global Warming that GREED! ... Takes no interest in etc. etc. etc...


Darwin did not believe that evolution inevitably produces more complex life forms and that the ultimate results of this processor we humans Natural Selection is not the question and it’s not the answer for how we came to be as an irresponsible destructive human species, this is fact not theory, even Darwin had the brains to rationalize that one out. Natural Selection is part of the building block, (if you will) “Of the Intelligent Design of the Universe & Nature”... In other words ... GOD!


The only problem with that is "we, as a human species with a soul" haven’t been Responsible Stewards of our part of it ... but instead have been an irresponsible destructive human species to each other and to our planet. In lieu of my My Life Bestowed this is my synopsis overview, review and view. I’m sure that if everyone would look back into their lives. They would then be able to remember their own near death experience that was avoided. OK, was it just one of those things by luck, chance or by divine intervention like mine? ...  It’s your dealings of or with feelings to be wise and analyze.


Luck in either case is a foolish lottery ticket; the roll of the dice or on the roulette wheel better known as gambling addicted to a Natural Selection of being financially broke, but gambling with your life in the devils domain is insane - it’s a natural direction to God-less-ness, heaven-less into emptiness! The “HEART” isn’t just a pumping station of blood, but it also directs the flow of it to the brain of thoughts, in other words and in this case, a Personal Decision to be able to dwell in Heaven or Hell?



To reiterate, the bearable parable of me, “Two puppy’s fall into a tub of milk; one climbs out


As in doubt. The “other” stays in to learn to swim, around and around faster and faster


Until the milk churned into cream. You see, the moral to be, is the “Other” was me


Life can be ruff and life can be tuff, but if you don’t give in, sometimes you win


Question; if quitters never win and winners never quit, who came up with


“Quit while you’re ahead?” Answer, a defeated pessimist! I know I’m a


Pessimist,  but  as  a  follower  of  right  over  wrong  thinking,


I’ve never been     defeated as one!




Look, I’m not part of the hypocrisy of misquoting the bible incorrectly, however I do know that one can’t choose how, when, where or whyone came into this world, but one can choose one’s own path through it. Anyone can do what I did with the right attitude of thinking and everyone has a driving force that moves them; it all depends on the attitude of vehicle their using. Mine was and still is for my appreciation of the miracles bestowed me throughout my humble life thus, (there but for the grace of God, go I).


I am so thankful for God’s patience with me throughout my life and I’m thankful for "The Boys Farm School" and my wife, (when I didn’t) making me a better person for it. This is what my biography is all about. I’ve experienced the good, bad and ugly in me, but it was the good that mattered.


The following essays, (To be or not to be that is the question) “The perception of the Mind that is Untrue is the awareness of the Heart that is true to be able to differentiate the characterssoul from its role and The Etymology of the Conscious Unconscionable are essays of pertinence and can be found, opened and read from my The Human Heart line up on my site.


Lastly, for the naysayer reading this, whatever is thought of me or my compositional-essay-writings doesn’t matter to me, because I have done my part in passing them on to you to review for whatever it’s worth. Although my wick of life is growing dimmer, At the end of all of our lives as we know it - the facts will reveal the truth to everyone about their own biographical memoir they chose to live by, as I have, thus “my life bestowed” that I shared with you - as it is true.



It’s the Six through Seven that gets ya to Heaven;


#1 Do you believe in God the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit from your Heart?


#2 Do you believe that God is the (Intelligent Designer of the Universe & Nature?


#3 Do you believe that God is the (architect planer of our planet Earth?


#4 Do you believe that God created the biodiversity of ALL living life forms to coexist?


#5 Do you believe that God created we human species in his own image to love instead of hate?


#6 Do you believe in the devils domain and that it is made

up of pure evil against God’s command?


#7 Do you believe in what God wants from you and what to do about it?


My closing personal feelings


Harry Callahan: I know what you're thinking. "Did he fire off six questions and reload with a seventh? Well, to tell you the truth, in all this bewilderment, I kind of lost track myself. but being that this is the most powerful question presented to you and would blow your mind clean off in being to late with the right answer, you've got to ask yourself; do you feel lucky, well do you, punk? Bank Robber:" I just gots to know" "Dirty Harry" (1971) amended memorable quote.


Harry wasn’t as dirty with me because I wrote this script and because I am not a mindless minion to ANY fraternal order involving the hypocrisy of people including; religions and or politics etc. to influence my thinking the wrong way, as I am a conscientious loner. If I did, I would be hypocritical myself according to my feelings. Most people are able to discreetly hide their feelings from within themselves, whereas I can’t, a BIG problem with me and the older I get, the more set in my ways, particularly against the things I feel and sense isn’t right. No, I just believe the way I believe from my heart, because of what you just read from the memoirs of my life bestowed. I know that there are good people - out there - some ware - that might read this for what it’s worth to them and it might make a positive influence in their life and to that extent, I did right by sharing my story with them. But I can tell you that I really believe that Lucifer the devil has a major influence in all walks of people’s lives and they don’t even know, care or realize it.


I don’t want to appear as a fundamentalist bible thumper, but it’s kind of hard not believe in the devils domain when we’ve witnessed so much evil in it from a variety of society of a human species, therefore why not pin point it to an influential source such as in “the devil's domain”. He is the father of all evil and his sons are the master race of demons that he created from hell that are as cunning as well. Now, think of Hitler and his ambitions of creating a master race of what he called a “pure Aryan people” of which became demon Nazi’s of the 3rd Reich eliminating everyone and everything in his path to and for his world of domination total damnation!


This guy or whatever you want to call him was the epitome of what evil is all about. He actually survived 41 assassination attempts on his life and in the end; he ended up taking his own unfound ghostly life? Talk about a cat of nine lives - he would have had to have been reincarnated 4.5 times as a cat.


Think about it and think of the EVIL he did in the devils domain. But satisfaction is as comfortable does with people who simply don’t want to know, hear or believe in such nonsense, when it comes down to their own worldly desires and needs, thus a world of uncertainty influenced by POWER-GREED-IGNORANCE-HATE the controlling tools of the devils trade in the devils domain.


Nevertheless, as long as the dice keeps rolling, let it ride - let it ride - let it ride - despite the consequences from the ultimate gamble of their lives, however in the end, You Lose Big Time, because God isn’t a gambler ... he is the metaphoric jack pot that is over looked. Hitler was just one example of many, but most certainly a good one to consider for being entirely controlled in the devils domain, wouldn’t you say? With that said, how does it feel to live in a paralleled failing government of the Roman Empire days, because gluttonous is ... how politicians lives?


As for me, if and when my time is up, I feel that this same God that I love and wrote so much about in my heart’s essay-writings, would really be lenient to let this person (myself) into his heaven, simply because, I don’t feel I’ve earned my right and way too, but you know what? I have yet to see a halo shining over my head when looking into a mirror of myself and Yet, I know that this same and only true Godof  forgiveness, forgave me anyway even though I don’t deserve it. However, he knows my heart within the boundaries of my soul and protected it throughout my life and I didn’t even realize and or appreciate it until I grew older and wiser in using the commonsense that everyone can choose to use.



If there would be a valuable lesson that I could pass on about my life’s experiences and achievements, it would be that a genuine-self-respect with a positive mental attitude, can only be earned through a purified seed of “Integrity Thinking” of which are of  honorable principles that won’t be bought off  "(Matthew 19:24) ... And again I say unto you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God) .... or sacrificed for a selfish gain purpose. After all, isn’t that what all decent and honest people depend on for themselves in fairness from the learning habits of infectious greed that hurts? For insight, read some more of my essay writings of relevance, you can search them in the "Essay" section by their titles on my website ex.




In conclusion, by reading my (Biographical Memoir) is to hopefully inspire others to pick the right train to ride on that won’t end up in the devils domain. Look, I realize that there are different strokes for different folks, but the differences are in the choices we make that will ultimately determine our future’s destiny. By foolishly picking the wrong train to ride on is to go in the wrong direction that WILL ultimately end up in a destiny of derailment. Life is too short to waste with our precious time the most valuable asset that we own and take for granted and is limited.


A period of time is considered as a resource under our control and sufficient to accomplish something; Time is the continuum of experience in which events pass from the future through the present to the past. Time is an indefinite period (usually marked by specific attributes or activities); you either get it right or wrong, there’s no turning back after it’s over. So, why waste it in a materialistic world of deception filled full of greed that will ultimately end up with regret in the end. Proverbs, Time and tide wait for no Man - because - Procrastination is the thief of time.



When you wish upon a star makes no difference who you are...

anything your heart desires ... will come to you...

If your heart is in your dream…

No request is too extreme … When you wish upon a star…

As dreamers do … Fate is kind...

"Walt Disney"


To recapitulate the rationale in a nut shell, as you have read, I have written much about God and or Jesus throughout my biography... not because I think I am an evangelist from Los Angeles or even worse, of an infliction of a politician ... but for whatever reason, I do not know, but what I do know ... is that they’ve saved my life and saved my soul ... and went on to ease my strife ... throughout my life ... as my wish come true ... as heartful dreamers do ... Then I believe that ... fate will be kind ... as you will find ... that that star ... is where you are ... If your heart is in your dream ... in this life or the next life... to deem ... Ref: Click here, (Rev 3:12 AV) … Evidence for Reincarnation in the Bible  ... Think about it, have you ever had a premonition of yourself  with the same score of being here before? ... Now, consider this, why are there so many innocent sexes ...muddled and jumbled ... in good and decent people?


Sometimes the Fragment within the eye can distort the vision to know why...

as a fragmented eye can't see  the danger of what could be close by...

Metaphorically  Written  by,  Don  L.  Johnson


Look, I know that I 'm not perfect with certain imperfection in certain sections of my life to deal withbut basically ... my heart  is good ... as I feel it should ... and it wise without telling lies ... echoes my brain ... to be the same, however my Heart as being  claustrophobically weak ... effects my brain to expressively speak from how to deal with how I feel ... and so my gut says to keep my dumb mouth shut... and let my feelings ... fulfill my writings .... From my heart ... that is confidently smart.


The writings of my biography without God and or Jesus in it would be like riding a bike without feet... or going to bed without sleep ... in missing a dream without a scene... how could you get the full picture ... of these rhymes of mine ... to be complete?


It is ... as it was ... as it is today ... as will forever stay, but to further elaborate ... right to this date ...  is to say that I am a loner that doesn't belong to any one of Christianity's 2.1 billion members  with approximately 36,000 separate denominations ... let alone the rest of the 24 major religions comprised of another 5.5 billion members and guess what? They all think that theirs is the answer. Well, I simply believe in what my heart has known throughout the journey of my life’s experience and I don't need to experience others Link → "Religions of Convenience


Matthew 7:21-23 "Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven;

but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven". ...


Matthew 7:5 --- Thou hypocrite,

first cast out the beam out of thine own eye and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother's eye ... 


James 1:26 If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue,

but deceiveth his own heart, this man's religion [is] vain. 


It is sad to believe that people can't trust in people who deceive ... It is sad to be had by people of  Vanity, Hypocrisy, Power, Greed, Ignorance and Hate to this date of shameful lies in disguise of their religions ... especially mine of the "Born Again Christian "faith in Jesus ... that one would have to be aware of the facade of deceivers ... as opposed to the reality of the none believers of religions ... At least they don't use Gods name ... with a brain for selfish gain ... To me, there is nothing more appalling.


Yes, profit today with a smile for a while, but pay tomorrow ... with a whole lot of sorrow ... God doesn't forget and neither does his son from what evil has done through the souls of humanity. Matthew 21:12 ... King James Bible... And Jesus went into the temple of God, and cast out all them that sold and bought in the temple, and overthrew the tables of the money-changers, for He did it then and